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  • Parenting through depression

    One of the worst parts of being depressed is not feeling like I'm fully present for Elsa and Clio. They are brimming with energy and enthusiasm these days, drinking in life in great big gulps. I hate not being able to give them the focus and engagement that they deserve. I hate feeling like I'm only half there.

     

    When I'm having an episode of depression -- like the one that sideswiped me two weeks ago and is just starting to lift a bit -- all I want to do is, well, nothing. Everything is such an effort. Just being hurts. Sleep is good. Lying on the couch watching TV (with the exception of campaign coverage) is OK, too. But entertaining a couple of toddlers who, these days, want mommy to do everything they do -- Mommy draw! Mommy read! Mommy legos! -- is signficantly more challenging. Akin to parenting while you've got the flu or a bad cold, but worse. Because it's not just your body that feels lousy; it's your brain, too.

     

    Last week, I kept thinking up titles for the "Bad Parent" essays I could write for Babble. Bad Parent: I let my Children Watch Back-to-Back Episodes of Curious George So I Can Lie on the Couch Moping and Sighing.  Bad Parent: I Count the Minutes Until Bedtime. Or even, Bad Parent: I watched "Mad Men" and Drank a Big Old Glass of Wine at 4 O'Clock in the Afternoon While my Children Crumbled Play-Doh All Over the Living Room Rug.

     

     

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  • Mommy's turn to cry

    Remember how I said I wasn't going to write about bodily functions anymore?  I lied. Well, sort of. This isn't about Elsa and Clio's bodily functions, but my own. Puking, specifically. I spent several hours last night engaged in this delightful activity, my stomach repeatedly, violently insisting on purging itself of its contents long after there was nothing left to purge. It was wretched. On the bright side: at least there was women's gymnastics to watch in between pukes. And the US kicked ass!

     

    After the medal ceremony and some final, valedictory heaves, I basically lay in bed moaning for awhile, because I felt so completely awful -- aching, shaky, spent. Eventually I fell asleep. Today, fortunately, there's been no more puking. But lots of aching and nausea and feeling exhausted. As I write this, I am snacking on my children's Goldfish crackers, bringing my total caloric intake for the day up into the triple digits, I hope. (Another bright side: easy 2 pound crash diet!)

     

    Seriously, though, what is the deal with parenting and getting sick?

     

     

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Jane Roper

Jane Roper in Boston

One baby? Piece of cake. Try two. This working mother gives you the inside scoop on the ultimate in extreme parenting: twins.

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