Full on panic mode here. You can probably feel the hyperventilation through the computer. Anxiety level is a 9.2 on a 10 point scale. I'm grinding my teeth. I can't stop eating salads with jalapenos. OK, that has nothing to do with stress, but it is related to pregnancy and, as cravings go, it's one I'll take over a desperate need for brownies. I wouldn't turn down a brownie, mind you, I just don't have to go to the same place every day and buy one, as I have to with salads. The poor salad maker guy thinks I'm nuts, hovering over him, demanding he add even more jalapenos, despite the fact that all reasonable tastebuds would refuse to consume apples + pears + spinach + extra extra jalapenos +salmon.
When I'm not obsessing over the salad I just ate or the salad I really want to have beamed in front of me but can't go get because my husband's at work and Axel is asleep and somebody must stay home with the wee child, I am obsessing over childcare. This is what it means to be a working mother - a quarter of your time is spent worrying about childcare. (This may be true for many fathers out there, too, just not in my house. Childcare anxiety falls on my to-do list, along with nursing and making risotto. My husband gets to take the pets to the vet and take out the trash, and shows up when I schedule even more childcare center tours.)
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