Blank PagesRachel Matthews
I love writing.
I love to journal and doodle and scribble and scratch.
I have dozens of journals and diaries from childhood through adolescence — filled with memories, thoughts, hopes, emotions and randomness.
I have always loved writing, always loved the written word, always loved expressing myself and emptying my mind via pen and paper.
I find myself in an odd place right now.
By the very thing which used to inspire and excite me…
I bought a new journal, a beautiful journal with a natural cover and smooth pages.
As I walked up to the front of the store with the journal – images flashed through my mind.
Pages covered with thoughts, hopes, dreams, ideas…
Page after page covered with me… my heart, my hopes, my essence… both a release and a source of inspiration.
So much potential in those smooth pages.
Now it taunts me.
I can’t seem to write in it.
I’m afraid of writing the wrong thing – of wasting the space – of not living up to the image in my mind.
It’s silly, ridiculous, laughable even…
Yet my notebook remains blank, the pages virginal – untouched, unmarred…
I know that I just need to write.. for 30 seconds, 60 seconds…
I need to just WRITE.
But I’m so intimidated by those blank pages and not living up to their potential…
Please tell me I’m not alone.
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