That’s what people say when they feel like they need to be inspired, motivated, to create memories…to live. Just open your eyes and wake up. When I really think about it, that’s the problem. I am awake, my eyes are wide open. I am too awake. I have filled every moment with ways to be awake, to have my eyes always open… always doing.
Up before everyone. Get everyone up, start the morning routine. Then settle into my desk and laptop for a full day of work. Deadlines. Pitches. Meetings. Calls. Blink and it’s time for everyone to get home and start the evening family activities. Homework. Dinner. Baths. Bedtime Stories. By the time it’s just my husband and I, brains just don’t know how to shut off. I’m present and awake for it all. I live each moment with eyes wide open.
But I remember a time when everything was new. A time of discovery and adventures. A time when I would sit on the beach, close my eyes and inhale the ocean air. A time when I would wonder if the boy before me would try to kiss me, and when he did, I would close my eyes to relish the feel of his lips on mine. A time when my favorite song would come on the radio and I would close my eyes and sway to it in my living room. A time when my newborn daughter was softly sleeping in my arms, I would close my eyes and smell the top of her head and fall into a love I had never know til she was born.
I have to remember that life is not about always having your eyes open and doing. Remembering to close my eyes and take it all in- the scents, the feelings, the sounds- so I that in 10, 20 or 40 yrs, I can close my eyes and resurrect all those moments once again and make them last forever.
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