It’s New Year’s Eve and I only have one resolution for the new year: To consume more in 2013.
I know that doesn’t sound like a popular statement and I’m sure some of you are reading this blog on your new iPad mini while stuffing your face with leftover Christmas chocolate almonds and thinking “MORE?…I need less! I’m overflowing with more. How did this happen? I was once the kind of young creative soul who could amuse myself for hours with paper and crayons. Now look at me! I haven’t stopped looking at this screen for days and I now I have to wear my robe out for New Year’s Eve – unbelted – because it’s the only thing that fits! Okay. ONE MORE salted caramel and that’s IT. THIS TIME I MEAN IT!”
Well I’m serious. I need to consume more in 2013 and maybe you’d like to join me. But I’m not referring to things I’ve had enough of, I’m actually thinking of things I need more of…
As a self-employed person I spend a lot of time thinking of ideas. On Twitter I spend a lot of time thinking of jokes and on Facebook I spend a lot of time looking at pictures of your family vacation in 2008 and replaying that hilarious video you posted. Hours go by and as fun as that was, my well feels pretty empty. But don’t get me wrong, I love it all. And it’s true, I am one of those kinds of people who comes up with a new idea at least every day. I don’t always act on it but when I do it consumes me entirely. I love new ideas. I really have no income without my next idea. My ideas pay for daycare.
But right now, at this moment, I really want to be consumed entirely by an incredible book. Hell, I’d settle for a great magazine article. Written by YOU. I want to consume anything that doesn’t require a screen. I want to be present and in the moment and have my well filled by other brilliant minds. It’s why I’ve always loved working on a play. It’s one of the only things that, for me, requires me to live in the moment and truly listen…and consume the work of others.
I want to consume my friends…uninterrupted, without checking my phone or answering a text. I’ve had this several times over the past two weeks and those times were nothing short of delicious. Note: no friends were actually eaten during this time. Just long conversations, deep laughs and good wine.
I want to consume my bathtub. Actually plan for it and sit in the tub. With a magazine. If I actually light a candle I may never leave.
I want to consume a good book. Not in pajamas and not horizontal. Sitting in a chair with a cup of tea hours before I actually go to bed. And not taking breaks to do loads of laundry. I know, this sounds crazy and impossible.
As a mother, I want to consume the outside world again. I love my children and my husband dearly and love to share my life with them. I hate it when I’m out and I see something interesting and they aren’t there to see it as well. I always feel a little bit guilty that I witnessed something special without them. Isn’t that my job now? To make sure I make available to my children all those wonderful, unique and special moments? Well, here’s what I’m thinking for 2013: I’m allowed to consume beauty just for me. To go for a walk by myself or see a sunset and not pull out my phone to take photo. To maybe just look at the sunset, the sky, the world and take it in.
To consume it and to be grateful that I’ve given myself such a gift.
If only for a moment.
P.S. Happy New Years, thank you for another year of reading our blog. It means the world to us that you do…
P.P.S: Special Thanks to Wil Wheaton who kinda inspired this blog post…and in doing so, inspired me.
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