I shared with you last week that Avery has decided that she no longer wants to nurse. At just 12 months old she no longer has interest in my breasts. Although I knew it was coming, I just didn’t expect it to happen this quickly. It seemed as if one minute she wanted to nurse and the next she had no recollection what they were even for.
I’m sad about it. As much as I thought I was ready for the journey to end, I really wasn’t. I’ve spent many nights crying about it. The nights when I was supposed to be up nursing her for her dream feed were spent dreaming about the dream feed. But Avery was ready and therefore I had to be. And when one door closes another door opens. Rather than spending our morning and nights nursing, we are now spending that time cuddling. Avery has never been a cuddler. I used to try to get her to sit still for just 10 minutes just to nurse. Now that’s all changed. She will just come up to me and lay down with her head on my chest. It’s the best feeling in the world.
As I’m trying to look at the silver lining of all of this, I’ve realized that there are many things that I completely forgot that I could enjoy now that I’m not nursing. Nursing had become such a big part of my everyday life, that the few sacrifices you have to make just seemed so normal. But now that it’s all over, I am now trying to find the upside in all of this.
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