I was extremely anxious all day long, wandering around from room to room, never getting anything done. I perpetually had a lump in my throat that would never go away, and only got bigger as the day went on. I longed for laying around in my dark bedroom, not because I was tired, but because I wanted to tune out my life and my children.
After long discussions with my husband, friends and health professionals, it was determined that I had postpartum depression and anxiety. I then went on an antidepressant, and stayed on it until I found out I was pregnant with Paul. During my first trimester, I went cold turkey off the medication (something I wouldn’t recommend under most circumstances).
I’m current seven weeks postpartum, and unmediated. I would be lying to you if I said I that I wasn’t worried about suffering from PPD again, and am somewhat waiting for it to rear it’s ugly head.
But I’m a fighter, and I won’t go down easy.
To combat my post baby anxiety, I’m taking some preemptive healthy measures that I hope will help keep “The Sads” far, far, away from me.
7 things I’m doing to decrease my post baby anxiety:
And while there is no perfect solution for dealing with anxiety and postpartum depression, this is what’s working for me, right now. Tomorrow, next week, next month could be different. Having a case of “The Sads” is a serious matter, and is nothing to be ashamed of, this I have learned first hand. And by no means am I making claims that “all you have to do is eat right, exercise and sleep to avoid PPD”. I would never say that in a million years. I’m just trying to be conscious of how my body is feeling, and trying to make the best healthy choices to help it feel it’s best.
Having a new baby is hard. So hard. So very, very, very hard. Throw in a few additional kids, and you have a whole marathon to run everyday. The nicer and kinder you can be to yourself, the better.