I’ve never had an addictive personality. I try things, and I might love them, but then I just as easily let them go. Maybe I’m just lazy? Most days I’d really like a diet coke but if they are out in the garage, eh, I’ll have water. I’ll hear a great song on the radio but will never bother to search it out. Glass of Wine? Maybe I’ll just go to bed instead.
BUT, I’ve found the one thing that I can’t live without…
My camera. I thought that I snapped a lot of photos because I make my living as a blogger and, ya know, I have to take pictures. Come to find out, I’m deeply addicted to taking pictures. This past Friday I found myself at the Dallas Arboretum with my Mother-in-law, the three kids and… no camera. “That’s ok,” I say as I try to keep my voice from shaking, “I’ll just use my iphone.” Battery dead, palms sweating. “That’s ok, let’s just have a picnic, can’t let it ruin our day.” But then the dark thoughts start setting in…
Look at the sun hit Quinn’s curls…
Withdrawal setting in. Mother-in-law interrupts, “Would you like to hang on to my phone in case you want to grab a photo or two?” “Oh, me? Um sure. Thanks. ” Enabling.
Harmless right? Let’s look at the 10 signs and symptoms of addiction and abuse and decide…
1. You’re neglecting your responsibilities at school, work, or home (e.g. flunking classes, skipping work, neglecting your children) because of your photography.
2. You’re taking photos under dangerous conditions or taking risks while taking photos, such as driving while taking pictures.
3. Your photography is getting you into legal trouble, such as arrests for disorderly conduct, or stealing to support your habit.
4. Your photo taking is causing problems in your relationships, such as fights with your partner or family members, an unhappy boss, or the loss of old friends.
5. You’ve built up a tolerance. You need to take more photos to experience the same effects you used to with smaller amounts.
6. You take photos to avoid or relieve withdrawal symptoms. If you go too long without taking photos, you experience symptoms such as nausea, restlessness, insomnia, depression, sweating, shaking, and anxiety.
7. You’ve lost control over your photo taking. You often take more photos than you planned, even though you told yourself you wouldn’t. You may want to stop shooting, but you feel powerless.
8. Your life revolves around photo taking. You spend a lot of time taking and thinking about photos, figuring out how to get them, and recovering from the effects.
9. You’ve abandoned activities you used to enjoy, such as hobbies, sports, and socializing, because of your photo taking.
10. You continue to take photos despite knowing it’s hurting you. It’s causing major problems in your life—blackouts, infections, mood swings, depression, paranoia—but you shoot anyway.
Yikes, I’m 7 for 10! How do you score? Have you become addicted to photography since becoming a Mama?