When I first decided I would have my third child at home I was nervous. After having two children in a hospital via induction and epidural, I wasn’t sure how well I’d handle the pain. I have a vivid memory of having a very painful contraction at the hospital and asking the nurse what I was dilated to.
The answer: a two. A TWO? I had expected a seven, maybe even an eight. But a two?
Needless to say, I got the epidural.
It was the memory of that contraction that haunted me throughout all the months leading up to our son’s birth. If a two blew my mind, how could I even think I could make it through an entire birth? But I kept thinking that millions of women before me have experienced childbirth and if they could do it, so could I.
Turns out, I could do it. I did do it. And it was awesome.
More on what a home birth feels like later. For now, here’s what a home birth looks like. Just a couple photos from the birth of our son, Charlie Maximus Bielanko.
*Note: It all happened so fast we didn’t really comprehend I was actually in labor. Up until about two hours before his birth, we thought that maybe I was experiencing false labor. By the time we finally realized it was the real deal everything was happening so fast we forgot to take photos. So, there are no photos of me in labor, which might actually be a good thing. Considering what the “Ugly Cry” photo looks like, maybe the world doesn’t need to see me in labor.