There’s a lot of press given to not losing who you are in motherhood, to making sure you take care of yourself and get the time you need to do things that are important to you. I’m all about that, but at the same time, the beginning days of being a mother of two left little time or desire to attend to things that matter to me aside from my children. Their needs were so big, and I was so tired. I didn’t really care if I was “losing myself.” I would gladly have gotten lost if I could have had a few more hours of uninterrupted sleep. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with just being in survival mode for a season, letting go of everything aside from just making sure everyone is alive and kicking at the end of each day.
However, now that we’ve been home nearly four months and Elvie has been cleared to proceed with normal well baby check-ups instead of bi-weekly monitoring, I have a little more time and energy to get backing to being, well, myself. I still can’t do anything huge, and caring for my children is still my main occupation, but there are some little things I’ve slipped back into my routine that make me feel like life is normal again.