Today was the day.
For months now I’ve known it was coming and pleaded with the passing of time to just slow down a little. But time waits for no one and it certainly wasn’t listening to me. If it was? Today wouldn’t have shown up so fast.
Wasn’t I just giving birth to Huggy Baby like a day ago?
How could my maternity leave be over already?
How could today be the day that I would have to return to work full-time?
I’m not sure I’m ready.
Ready or not, today was the day. So, just before 8:30 this morning I kissed my husband and two sons goodbye and headed back to work. Somehow I managed to do it without crying.
I didn’t expect that. I cried at least four times on my first day back to work after my maternity leave ended with my first son. I fully anticipated a repeat of that today. But somehow I made it through the first half of my work day without shedding a tear. It wasn’t until I came home for an hour in the afternoon that my eyes got a little leaky. Oddly, I was talking about how I hadn’t cried that made me get a little weepy. Emotions are weird that way.
And just like that my first day back to work after my maternity leave is now officially over.
I was welcomed back with lots of hugs, lots of smiles, and lots of “We missed you.” and “Glad you are back.”
If it was even a little bit possible I would stay home with my kids. But it isn’t. My income is integral to us being able to pay our bills, feed our family, and have a roof over our heads. Right now that is just the way it is.
Thankfully, I work for amazing people and they made my first day back to work just that much easier today.