I’ve been breastfeeding Henry for three months now and I think I’m done. But here is the weird thing; I feel super guilty about it. And sad! Which is totally crazy because I never thought I’d last this long in the first place.
I was all set to write a post explaining why I decided I’m done and this whole list of justifications for those reasons, but I’m not going to do that. It’s silly that I feel the need to explain myself, but that’s what this whole culture surrounding breastfeeding has done to women – made them feel like they owe an explanation if they don’t want to (or, like me, choose to stop) breastfeeding.
But then again, not explaining why I’ve decided to stop breastfeeding is weird too, right? Like, I’m making it a bigger deal than it should be by not just saying I’ve decided to stop. Then those guilty feelings crowbar their way into my heart and I don’t want to say anything at all because I feel like I should’ve lasted longer. Like, quitting now makes me less of a mother or something even though, intellectually, I know that’s not true.
It’s been a long day. The little fellow in question has not napped at all and in between writing paragraphs here I’m currently trying to convince him it’s bedtime. Does this post make any sense? Did you suffer the same conflicting feelings about deciding to stop breastfeeding? How did you know when it was time to wean?