Leaving Them Never Gets Easier


photo 1I leave today for a five day work trip on the west coast. This will officially the longest that I’ve ever been away from the girls. I am lucky that my job offers me many opportunities to travel and explore places and do things that I would otherwise never have the chance to do. I often try to take advantage of these trips when they come my way.

For days leading up to the trip I find myself anxious and excited to get away. Working from home with two little ones definitely brings its stress. Going away allows me to regroup and take some much needed time to focus on myself.

But then comes the moment that it’s time to leave for the airport. This morning I left my dark and quiet apartment at 4:30am. The girls were sleeping soundly while I kissed their cheeks goodbye. I left the apartment with an ache in my heart. I’ll miss them. I have only left them a handful of times to go on trips and it never gets easier.

When you become a mother your children become a part of you. My girls take up a space in my heart that no one else will ever be able to fill. They are always on my mind no matter what is going on in my life. I need them just as much as they need me.

It might seem silly to get so sappy when I will only be away for five days. But for me, five days feels like an eternity. That’s not saying that I won’t enjoy my time away or take advantage of the “me” time. I wouldn’t have left if I didn’t. But no matter what job or exciting place I’m traveling to, I know that in my heart, my number one job is being a mom. And that’s what makes me miss them so much while I am gone. Even if it is for five days. Even if it is for five minutes. I miss them.

What’s the longest time you have been away from your child?

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