Before I begin, I’d like to say that I had no illusions that parenting would be easy. In fact, I fully expected it to be hard work. But, for some reason, it just seems completely different and much more overwhelming when you’re actually going through it than when you’re preparing for it during pregnancy.
Everyone keeps telling me that it gets easier and that I’ll start to figure it out, but there are definitely many moments when I just feel like I’m floundering without a clue.
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Breastfeeding has been a huge challenge for me, which I didn’t expect. I feel like I’m nursing 24/7…because I sort of am. I literally nurse for like 2-3 hours at a time in the night. Last night Fern slept from 10:30 – midnight and then was awake fussing and nursing until she fell back to sleep around 6:30 a.m. and slept until 7:30. Sleep depravation on top of my crazy hormones is pretty intense. Compound this with the fact that my milk supply is low, so after nursing I have to pump for a half an hour to try to help increase my supply, which cuts into any time that I might have for napping.
I don’t mean to complain, because I know that what I’m going through is nothing new and that plenty of other mamas have experienced this crazy newborn stage (and many have had it so much worse!), but it’s just been a lot harder than I thought it would be…harder and different.
What challenges did you or have you faced in your first month of motherhood?
Did you find that parenting had a sharp learning curve for you or were you a “natural”?