This weekend my husband and I had a wedding to go to. The wedding has been in our plans since early last summer, long before Addie was even a thought in our minds, let alone a reality in our lives. Two of our good friends had been planning this blow out of a wedding, which the bride described as a party… with a side of wedding. And that it turned out to be!
But… I found myself leaving my three week old baby alone… overnight. The youngest I had ever left any of my children. My mind was racing most of the night and day as I was away from her…
Did I leave her enough breast milk?
Would she sleep alright for my mother?
Would she be fussy?
Would she miss me?
You know… all those typical things mothers think about when their new baby is with someone else. But alas… I had no choice but to leave her for the night. It turned out to be something like 18 hours total.
But I cried like a baby… I am sure I actually cried more than Addison did over this period of time too. Between the hormones, and just missing my little girl, I was a total hot mess!
I can certainly say that I won’t be letting her out of my sight anytime soon, not because I would miss her, but because I would fear for my own sanity if I do. Her sweet little baby smiles, and kisses just complete my daily life, and without them… even for a couple hours I seriously don’t know what to do with myself.
Of course it was nice to have some time where I was responsibility free, but on the other hand… I felt so… lost because for the past 4 years, I have always had a child to care for at some point. Kind of puts life into perspective.
Despite it all, my husband and I have decided once a month, we need a baby sitter so we can have a night to ourselves. It really is important for keeping your marriage strong.
For my readers… Two questions…
1) How did you feel the first time you left your little one?
2) How do you make time for you and your partner to keep your relationship fresh and sexy?
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