No, there are no guarantees in life.
Not the gender of a child, and not the life they will live. We all plan to live long and healthy lives, but sometimes… life happens and so does disease, infection, and unexpected illness.
My post today is my wishes for my daughter which are stemmed from my own personal selfishness in losing my sister day by day. Many have read on my personal blog Momotics that I have been quiet there lately. It is because I am losing my sister.
My sister has an infection in her cerebellum. Sounds like something from a fictional science fiction movie, but it is something we are all living with daily, as we spend our last days with her in hospice.
My sister was 15 years old when I was born. And for the first years of my life she cared for me, to the point where I would only go to cuddle with her after I had my tonsils out as a baby.
Through my daily struggles I have been watching my daughter and remembering all the amazing memories that I had with her. Concerts, coloring my hair when I was in middle school, being able to run and cry on my sisters shoulder when I argued with my mom… which is a part of life for any teen girl.
And the more I thought of it, the more I know in my head that no matter how much my husband and I have decided we are done with children, babies, pregnancy, and anything that goes along with it… I want my daughter to have that kind of bond and relationship with a sister.
Adopted, biological… even a best friend that is like a sister… I am praying she is able to experience that some day. Even if it is just for my own selfish reasons because I will no longer have that sisterly bond.
Maybe another 5 or 10 years will bring plans for another child, or even a little girl in our home… Who knows? Nothing in life is guaranteed!
That is the biggest lesson this whole experience has taught me.