Until today, Avery has never showed any preference to any one person. She’s always been so easy going and would let anyone hold her and care for her. I’d always brag to everyone how laid back she was and that it was truly the gift of being the second child.
Today was my first official day back at the gym. I have been looking forward to this day for quite a while now. I even went shopping for new workout clothes to celebrate the occasion.
For the past few weeks I’ve been planning to get back to the gym, but have always thought of an excuse not to go. I knew it was going to be tough for me to get off my butt and get myself there, but I never expected that it was going to be even harder for Avery.
This morning I finally ran out of excuses and had no choice but to go. So I got the girls ready and hopped on the bus. I had everything planned. The girls would go to the childcare center while I worked out and got a little bit of time to myself. Well, things didn’t go exactly as planned. (Do they ever?)
As soon as we walked into the door of the childcare center and Avery saw the woman working, she flipped out. Not just a little fussy. I mean full on crying, throwing a fit, and freaking out! I have never, ever seen her react this way to anyone before.
At first I thought that she might be getting a little bit of separation anxiety, so I sat her down to play with Harlan and quietly left the room. She didn’t notice that I left, but as I was watching through the window, the woman working picked her up and Avery started to scream. I immediately went back in the room and tried to comfort her. She calmed back down, but as soon as the girl said something to her she started wailing again.
To try to calm her, I took her out of the room to nurse her for a little bit. It’s always had a comforting effect on her, so I thought that it was help put a little bit less stress on her. As soon as she was finished eating, I played with her a little bit and she seemed as happy as can be. As soon as we walked back into the room, her smile turned into a frown when she saw the childcare worker. I assured myself (and the woman) that she would only fuss for a little bit and that all would be fine very soon.
I made my way upstairs into the gym to start my cardio. After 30 minutes I head back to the room to check on the girls before I went into the weight room. Before I even got down the stairs, I could hear Avery crying. I hurried downstairs to grab her and ask if she has been crying the entire time I was gone. The woman tells me that she was off and on. As my heart rips into pieces, I thank the woman for her help and take the girls to get headed home without finishing my workout.
Let me be clear, it wasn’t anything that this woman specifically did. Avery just didn’t seem to warm up to her. So here’s my dilemma….Do I go back to the gym and just hope Avery gets over it? Or do I ask for a schedule of who is working the childcare center when and avoid going when that woman isn’t working?
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