I chose to have two babies even though I knew I still had to work full time. It was never going to be easy, and in 3+ years, it rarely has been.
I work from home, and “work” isn’t a euphemism. I work from home. Seemingly all the time. While I’m home with my baby, as I was with my 3-year-old until she started preschool in September, I’m working around the clock — every single day of the week. It sucks not to give the baby my full attention, but I’d rather this than having someone else care for her.
This morning, however, we snuck in a rare hour: We sat and did nothing. Together. And I was in heaven (cue the angels singing).
I wasn’t typing while she nursed. She didn’t sit and watch me talk on the phone. We just sat. (OK, maybe after about 30 minutes I edited some photos for a piece I’m working on, but I hardly consider that strenuous work. And it didn’t involve typing, which is always a plus.)
I’m a habitual and obsessive multitasker. It’s hard not to be when you work full time and care for children full time. But sometimes it’s nice to be afforded an hour or so to do nothing but cuddle. This time in my baby’s life — the sweet, snuggly, quietly sleeping time — won’t last forever, and I’m savoring each precious moment the best that I can, given the constraints of my life.
An hour on a Friday morning? I’ll take it. Boy, will I ever.
When do you ever get to do nothing but cuddle with your baby? Or are you lucky and get to do it a lot?
Image: Meredith Carroll