Little did I know, when I wrote a post asking if you’d love your spouse differently if you knew the world was ending, what would take place today. For some today, 12/14/12, is the day their world ended and it will always be remembered as such. After the tragic event that occurred in Newtown, Connecticut, this morning I am certain that for those left behind to mourn and remember their loved ones, life will never be the same. How could it?
If you turn on the news today you will be reminded that within an instant life, as we know it, can change. One catastrophic event can turn our world upside down and open up a floodgate of questions, questions we will desperately want answered all the while knowing that no explanation can lesson the pain all of our hearts feel.
With each tragedy our nation is faced with my heart grows heavier and heavier and my faith in humanity is tested. For much of the morning I boycotted the news and just cried. And cried. I also went to Twitter and Facebook and took some refuge in the prayers so many were and still are sending up on behalf of Newtown and, in the fact that so many hearts were also aching because to them the lives that were lost mattered. I came across one quote in particular that has resonated with me. It described the way I felt and also our world perfectly:
“There’re days that you want to lock the door and hide under the bed with your family. This world is as broken as it is beautiful.” @brookewhite
Today we mourn and we try and find a way to make our children feel safe in a world that becomes scarier with each tragic event. We try and figure out how to keep living when times like this make us want to do things like “hide under a bed” with our families. We also hope and pray that our world doesn’t end too because, when your family is your world, if something happened to them, how could it not feel like it has?
In the midst of all the brokenness we also look for beauty and something we can hold on to so that we might once again believe that this world isn’t all bad; something to give us hope that the despair that fills our today won’t fill our tomorrows, and that tragedy won’t always have to be our nation’s catalyst for change.
On a day when the world feels like such an ugly place, I can only hope that comfort can be found in the kindness of those who care enough to help those that have lost so much pick up the pieces as they fight to hold on to any memories they have and piece back together their lives somehow.
Praying for the broken hearted and for our beautiful yet broken, so very broken, world. And just like so many of you, I’m hugging my loved ones just a little bit tighter and for a little bit longer today.
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