I hit publish on a post over at 5 Minutes for Mom, “Pulled, Stretched, Torn — and I am not just talking about my belly” about two hours ago. And although I felt tremendous relief after writing it, once I sent it out to the world, I started to panic.
What are people going to think? Will they misunderstand me? Will they think I am a bad mom?
Opening ourselves and revealing our weaknesses on the internet is kind of dangerous stuff. I mean there are trolls out there!
But, regardless of trouble seeking trolls, all of our readers will make certain judgements and assessments of us. How honest should we be?
Personally, I have decided to shake off my insecurities and fears. I want to connect with my friends and readers with my truth, not smoke and mirrors and make-up, (well, actually I am keeping the make-up!)
We all have shame. (If you haven’t watched this video of Brene Brown yet, you really must!) I would rather reach out and risk being vulnerable so that I might help someone else feel like they are not alone.
I want to form friendships based on vulnerability and authenticity.
I have no time or interest in fake and “perfect.” (Well let me qualify that statement: I am totally ok with the perfect pair of boots and fake “man made” leather? Hey it is all I can afford!)
Cause you know what? I am flawed, very, very flawed.
And I am okay with it — well trying to be okay with it.
My father was a well-know and well-loved Christian figure in Canada. He had an interview program across Canada for twenty five years and traveled all over the world speaking to hundreds of thousands of people until he died suddenly at 56 years old.
As you can imagine, I grew up with people thinking I lived a charmed life with the most wonderful father. But of course, that was so far from my truth. Devoted Christians or not, our family had darkness, depression and dysfunction.
So, since I was a teenager, I have been committed to honesty and authenticity. As a youth worker for Youth for Christ, I made sure my kids knew I was just as flawed as they were, even if my sins weren’t as “glamorous” or “shocking.”
I believe a sin is a sin, not matter what way you slice it. Evil is in the middle. And we all have our fair share of them!
So, I am going to show my shame, open myself up to criticism and judgement. I want other people to know that it is ok to hurt and make mistakes — we are not alone in any of our struggles.
If I have to be the punching bag, I am gonna brace for it. (Please by gentle, despite my brave intentions, I am actually an approval seeker! ROFL)
What do you think? Do you think that we bloggers are sometimes too vulnerable? Do you appreciate it when a blogger “risks herself” and reveals her vulnerabilities?