This past week has been pretty hard on me, mentally and emotionally. 19 weeks and 4 days was as far as my last pregnancy was able to hold, so that day had a pretty big impact. Once I reached 20 weeks (this past weekend) a lot of the anxiety that I felt lifted. I know there isn’t a magic week for a healthy pregnancy or baby, but I have my own milestones because of what I went through when I lost the twins.
I’ve added a few new topics to shake things up below, but first check out a belly shot and new ultrasound pic of our little boy! And click through to see the pictures of this past week:
What This 19th Week of My Pregnancy was Like 1 of 12Click through to follow me on my pregnancy journey!
19 weeks and 5 days 2 of 12It's crazy how a third pregnancy gets big so fast. I love it and yet part of me cringes wondering how this shirt will look at 35 weeks - if it even still fits?
Our Nights 3 of 12We finished up Walking Dead (6 more months? Really?!) while I am trying to finish a blanket for Bella I've been knitting for months.
Working from Home 4 of 12This is my set up in the kitchen to write when my desk gets overwhelmed with the rest of life. I love this little spot.
Quiet Time 5 of 12One morning I was working and Bella was bored. I left her to her own devices for a few minutes, heard her get quiet, and found this when I went to check on her.
A Boy and His Dog 6 of 12Charlie loves to lay on my stomach as the baby kicks.
Memories 7 of 12My friend bought me these little orchids on the day in this pregnancy my water broke with my twins last year. It was a sweet reminder of them both.
Water Park 8 of 12Our military post has a small splash park by all the shopping, and after dinner one night we stopped there and let Bella play.
Daddy Time 9 of 12Bella loves to roughhouse with Daddy, and I love to see them together. She's a good sport about it all and it wears her out before bed which is great.
Lifesaver 10 of 12Poor Sam is suffering from my snoring at night. Being so congested this pregnancy has really taken a toll on both of us. These, along with a Neti Pot, have been so wonderful for us both.
Childhood 11 of 12There are moments when I am a bit envious of how simple and carefree life is when you're 3. I love being able to relive a little of that through Bella again.
19 weeks and 3 days 12 of 12Here's our little boy last week at his 3D ultrasound! His face was buried but we got a cute shot of his little ear, arm, and leg.
How Far Along: 20 weeks and 3 days!
Size of baby: A banana (for 19 weeks).
Sleep: I won a sound machine at Blissdom and it helps tremendously. As does a Neti Pot along with Breathe Right Nasal Strips.
Total Weight Gain: 4 lbs.
Innie or Outie: Can “small cave” qualify? It never has popped, just stretches.
Symptoms: A little bit of sickness but I only take Zofran at night now. ::kicks heels up:: It’s weird not to be sick and hurt all the time.
Movement: If his movement is any indication of what he’ll be like when he’s born, I need to invest in some serious swings and bouncers. This kid moves all the time.
Maternity Clothes: Ordered new tops and an adorable skirt from the Gap and Old Navy. It’s almost 90* here every day, and the majority of my maternity clothes are winter/spring.
Go-to eats: Taco Bell Volcano Nachos. Extra jalapeños. I feel so sad that’s what I crave but happy there are about 3 within close driving range. Also cereal at night and fruit.
Best moment of the week: Sam felt the kicks! We made it to 20 weeks!
What I’m looking forward to: Our big ultrasound next week. We’re all going, I can’t wait to see everything and spend a little more time with this little guy.
What I wish people knew: It’s the strangest feeling to still grieve for the babies you lost while carrying one that wouldn’t be here otherwise. I go through a lot of emotions over this.
Milestones: Tastebuds! Hope you like Volcano Nachos little one.
Photo Credit: istockphotos.com and my own
Diana blogs on raising a toddler daughter, the loss of her twin boys, and a baby boy on the way on the aptly named Hormonal Imbalances. Smaller glimpses into her day are on Twitter, Facebook, and Pinterest.
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