Pre-pregnancy, I tended to be easily susceptible to stress and negative thoughts, though during my pregnancy, I’ve been focusing on being a more optimistic person. It’s made me more happy than I’ve felt in a long time. I’ve been pretty mellow and laid back during this whole experience and I think it’s partially due to feeling well-educated and prepared for the most part.
However, last night I had a little breakdown.
While practicing some exercises to prepare my mind for contractions, I mentally broke down. I was deep into a wall sit, just short of 1 minute when I collapsed. I burst into tears and began crying so hard, I think my husband thought I’d gone into labor for a second! With so much on my mind these days, I just couldn’t hold it in any longer. All the thoughts about the hospital bag, birth plan, breast feeding, baby’s sleep clothes, diaper pails, etc, just came pouring out. He pulled me onto the bed and started rubbing my back until I calmed down.
I feel better today. For the most part at least. I know if our boy were to make his appearance tomorrow, we’d be perfectly fine with what we’ve got. But as prepared and educated as I’ve made myself feel this entire time, sometimes I can’t help but feeling unprepared. What needs to be done to do before I go into labor? Will I be able to breastfeed? What do I still need to purchase before he arrives? Since I’m a natural born list maker, I decided a to-do list was in order. List making helps me focus and figure out a plan of action. So here goes.
• Finalize birth plan.
• Pack hospital bag and make a list of things to be put in last minute.
• Purchase outstanding items that are considered “must-haves” for a newborn.
• Make appointment with a lactation specialist pre-delivery.
• Walk, walk, walk, walk. Continue to build up that endurance!
What about you? What kind of things, if any, were you anxious about in the days before giving birth?