Early in pregnancy, sleep was nearly impossible for me to come by. The middle of the night peeing started like 2 days after I got a positive pregnancy test and only got worse from there. Most nights it’s a miracle if I go fewer than 3 times. Last night I only went once and I was convinced something was wrong. Add to that some generalized insomnia in the first trimester and sleep has been a bit of a struggle.
As the weeks have passed, the insomnia has lessened a bit and while I’m still waking up several times a night, sleep has been less of a struggle and more of a wonderful luxury. But the biggest change in the second trimester has been the dreams. These are not your typical dreams.
Some of the time these dreams are based on things I’m worried about, but not talking to anyone about. Sometimes they’re completely from no where. But they are always vivid. And usually kind of disturbing.
The first crazy pregnancy dream I remember was one where my husband had cheated on me. I woke up that morning in tears and so angry I couldn’t even face my husband. Nevermind that this was total fiction and he had no idea what was going on, but I was angry and resentful. And better yet, in the dream he cheated on me with one of my classmates. When I saw her that morning, I could feel my blood pressure rise. That’s how realistic this dream was.
I had another dream last week that I was feeling totally fine but everyone around me insisted that I was in labor. No matter how many times I told them that I was not having contractions, no one would believe me. And then in the dream, the baby just fell out of me. It was disturbing on a whole bunch of levels.
And then last night I had a dream that my dad died. There is no way I can explain how awful that one was.
But by far the weirdest dreams along the way have been the sex dreams. Look, I’m not going to go into detail because there are just some things you guys don’t need to know, but not only are these alarmingly vivid, but they uh, feel vivid too, if you catch my drift. The first time it happened I freaked out, thought I was crazy and told no one. After the third night in a row I finally asked some of my friends who are moms and learned that apparently the sex dreams are totally normal. Just another thing no one told me about pregnancy. I have to admit though, it’s probably been my favorite pregnancy surprise to date.
All joking aside, I cannot emphasize enough how vivid these dreams are each night. The nightmares leave me terrified for hours after, the happy baby related ones start my morning off wonderfully. And others just keep me scratching my head to figure out the meaning. These hormones don’t just turn me randomly into a weepy mess during the day, it turns out they can direct my subconscious as well.
Did you have weird dreams when you were pregnant? Are there any that stick out in your mind?