Dear Huggy Baby,
I can’t believe we are just under ten weeks away from meeting you outside of my body for the first time. I’m excited about bringing you into our family.
I’m also a little scared.
It’s not that I’m scared of YOU, it’s just that I’ve never been a mother of two and I have to imagine it is really different from being a mother of one. Instead of spending my days with just one tiny baby—cooing at you endlessly, napping when you nap, eating your tiny toes and smelling your delicious head—I will be spending my days with a tiny baby and a four year old who will undoubtedly want to hold you as much as I will. Plus, your brother doesn’t nap anymore which means the napping when you do in an attempt to catch up on all the sleep lost during night feedings isn’t going to happen.
You may have a zombie mommy for awhile.
It has been what seems like an eternity since I’ve had a newborn to care for and I’m hoping that it all comes back to me. It’s instinctual, right? Feed you, change you, love you to pieces. I’m pretty good at that stuff.
I’m so excited that you are making G-tot a big brother. I cannot wait to watch the two of you make mischief together. When we asked him a few months ago what we should name you he said, “Huggy”. We’ve been calling you that ever since. He already loves you so much and is ready to meet you too. He is already telling you stories at night while we lay in bed, his face right up against my belly so you are sure to hear him. He thinks feeling you kick is really cool and has told your Dad and I that he wants to share a bedroom with you. He is a super cool kid. You will love him.
With regards to having “things” for your arrival we are grossly unprepared at this moment. Don’t worry, that will all change by the time you get here. I promise. It’s just that after having two miscarriages last year I was afraid to buy anything out of fear that it would jinx you growing to a healthy full term baby.
Yes, your mother is a little quirky. I hope you find it more charming than anything.
I hope you love being a part of our little family. We aren’t exactly what one might consider a “normal” family—your Dad is a musician and I’m a college instructor and artist. We don’t work 9—5 jobs and probably never will. We probably look a lot different than many of the families you will come in contact with. But we love each other and will love you more than you can imagine. Trust me when I say we already do.
I find it almost unbelievable that you will be here in just a couple of months. I wanted so badly for everything to be okay while you were growing in my body and I’m so very grateful that we have made it this far. Stay put for another 8 weeks or so, okay?
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