When I think about it more, I always wondered why anyone would think that breastfeeding was weird or strange. I mean… that is what our breasts were made for, and what they are intended for by nature. So the fact that most people in my life, including my own mother never breastfed always kind of boggled my mind. That why in the back of my head that was never answered.
With my second son I was unable to breastfeed him due to medical reasons, after he was 5 weeks old, I had no choice but to wean him, and it was heartbreaking for me, but the one thing I always heard from formula feeding mothers was it was easier than breastfeeding. That certainly wasn’t the case for me by any means. With my oldest we rarely used bottles, only when we would be going to drop him off with someone, etc. Then with my youngest my life was overcome with bottles, formula, and my dish washer. Easier my ass! It added a ton more work on top of taking care of my oldest son.
I knew this time around I would be damned if I didn’t or couldn’t breastfeed, and I started setting goals for myself. My first goal was to breastfeed till she was at least 6 months old. Then I read the story of a friend of mine, and breastfeeding mother who breastfed for 31 months, while working full time, going to school full time, and averaging 80 hour weeks. If she could do it, ANYONE could accomplish it!
It was an amazing inspiration for me, and helped me realize that it takes more than boobs, and a baby to breastfeed, but dedication on so many levels. Which for my children, I think that I can handle. I would give my life for my kids, so a couple extra hours here and there to pump, or make things work isn’t going to break me… my sanity maybe… but with three, three and under I am sure that isn’t something I will have for long anyway!
Since reading that, I have increased my personal goal to breastfeeding until she is a year old.
Wish me luck!