I know what you’re thinking. How could I not know when I go into labor? Usually most women do, but this is an honest fear that I’ve been having lately. It’s gotten so bad that I’ve had crazy pregnancy dreams about it for weeks now.
I had no idea I was in labor with my daughter and I am terrified the same will happen to me for this pregnancy.
My daughter was a little bit more than three weeks early, so you can imagine my surprise when I went to the hospital and my doctor told me I was 5cm dilated and in full blown labor. Especially when he thought all along (and told me every single appointment) that I would deliver on time or past my due date.
The night before I went into labor, I told my husband that I was feeling a bit “off” but I didn’t associate that with labor. When I went to use the restroom in the middle of the night and noticed blood everywhere I feared that something was incredibly wrong and that the pain I was having meant the same too.
I guess I didn’t learn much at all of the birth classes I took, because what I was experiencing was losing my mucus plug and contractions.
I’ll know now what to do if that happens again, but I’ve been hearing from everyone lately that labor can be completely different with each pregnancy.
That’s where the fear kicks in. If I didn’t know the first time, and the second is completely different. Does that mean I will have no idea again?
I’ll be the first to admit I haven’t read a single pregnancy book this time around. I think the busyness of life has gotten in the way and I just keep putting it off. I also keep telling myself that if I’ve already done it once, knowing what to do will just come naturally. I have a feeling that I am being a little over confident, though.
As my due date gets closer and closer and the fear in me gets worse, I plan on asking my doctor A LOT of questions about labor, especially ones that involve knowing for sure that I am in labor.
I’ve been experiencing a lot of Braxton Hicks lately, and some that are rather painful. The crazy part of me keeps thinking, “this could be it” but my doctor assured me at my last visit that this is all completely normal.
But even though my doctor tries to rationalize my thoughts, I continue to have this internal dialouge with myself every time I have a Braxton Hicks contraction.
“This one really hurts. If you have one again, get out your watch and start timing them.”
“The doctor told you this was normal, just calm down.”
“Yeah but last time you were in labor you went all night thinking they were Braxton Hicks and look what happened.”
“You still have a couple weeks until you are full term. Just calm down and wait and see what happens.”
And so far nothing has happened. So now it’s just a waiting game and me being a tad bit worrisome until I do actually go into labor.
Did you have any fears late in pregnancy?