My, how my life has changed since last week. “Bundle of Joy” doesn’t even begin to describe it. I had so many fears about not being able to attach to this baby like I did my last; battles with guilt (this could be somewhat ongoing); and changing/disrupting our family dynamic, only to realize that my heart really could double in size, yet again. And now I can’t imagine life as anything less than a party of four.
I’m so excited for all of you waiting to meet your babies. As for me, here is my 40-week breakdown: A glance at how my life looks (slideshow included, for your viewing pleasure!), and a summary of how things are going outside belly of mine.
Here’s what might be in store for you as week 40 approaches….
Size of baby: 7 pounds, 4 ounces at birth. 6 pounds, 11 ounces when we left the hospital. Back up to 7 pounds, 3 ounces at an appointment a couple days later. This girl is going to grow fast! Bittersweet.
Weight gain: Me? Well, it’s more of a weight loss, at last. I’ve lost plenty (at least 7 pounds, 4 ounces), but I can tell I still have a long way to go before I pull out my favorite pre-pregnancy clothes.
How I’m feeling: Really, where do I start? I’m emotional and overwhelmed but happy to say that overall, I feel surprisingly good—much better than I did after delivering my first baby. I’m trying to relish in this brief window as mother to a newborn babe. She has changed my perspective and made me feel hopeful. Still, I’m finding it difficult to spend enough time with my toddler, and am trying to come up with ways to make sure we get one-on-one time each day. I can’t help but feel like I’ve deserted him, a bit.
What I’m craving: Nothing! And I’m eating what and when I want … for the most part. However, I am always thirsty these days.
If you saw me today: Wearing my maternity skinny jeans and a nursing-friendly button-down henley with drapey sweater and scarf. Hair in bun on top of my head. (I’m surprised to be out of my sweats, to be honest, but in my current household, there is no rest for the weary.) I’m nursing the baby in the car, changing diapers on-the-go, and checking my eye makeup for any runs … I get weepy a little too easily. Snuggling a bundle on my chest one minute, and pretending to be T-Rex with my little boy the next.
Movement: Yes, of course! But this little girl is surprisingly calm and very sleepy.
Sleep: Anything can change, especially around the three-week mark, but I feel like I need to pinch myself with how well this little girl sleeps. We’ve passed a few nights awake from 2 a.m. t0 6 a.m., but most nights she only wakes up once between 1 a.m. and 9 a.m. I’ll take it for as long as it lasts.
What I miss: About being pregnant? Very little. I’m so happy to be eating after 7 p.m., if I feel like it, with no fear of heartburn. And I love sleeping on my stomach. And snuggling with the little person who made it all worth it. Mostly, I’m just so happy to see her and feel her little fingers and pinch her skinny legs.
Best moment so far: Holding my little babe in my arms, from the very first time and every time since. There is nothing like this kind of joy.
Click through the pics to see how life changed for me just shy of 40 weeks pregnant.