The Witch In My UterusAela Mass
So today I went for my SHG (sonohysterogram) to check out the fibroid the ultrasound tech discovered at my transvaginal ultrasound late last week. I know ultrasound images are often difficult to see, but if you look closely at the right side of the image and try to ignore the UFO-looking blob trying to be the star of the ultrasound, you can see the witch that’s living in my uterus. Do you see her? Do ya? Do ya? Well, she ain’t pretty with those beady eyes, that long nose, and her pointy chin. And it turns out, she’s a lot bigger than they were hoping, which left my wife and I asking, “What does this mean for our road to motherhood?”
The good news is that, because of its location, the fibroid wouldn’t be directly in the way of any future fertilized eggs trying to implant in the lining of my uterus. The bad news is that the fibroid is sizable: 5.5 centimeters, which means it has been with me for some time. I asked why it’s never been discovered before, and learned that regular Pap tests aren’t intended to be a tell-all about my vagina. It turns out, I have a retroverted uterus, which doesn’t mean a darn thing except that my uterus like the uteri of 1 in 3 women tilts back instead of forward. But my retroverted uterus is likely why this witch wasn’t discovered before.
Normally, when getting an annual pelvic exam, fibroids can be felt when the GYN presses her or his hands on the lower abdomen to feel around. But because my uterus goes back instead of forward, the fibroid was never previously detected. So is it a big deal?
According to the RPA, it doesn’t seem to be an indication of any potential roadblocks for our baby-making process. Yet. But depending on how long it takes for me to get knocked up, and if the fibroid grows in the meantime in such a way that it begins to take up space in my uterus that’s needed for implantation, we could have a problem. There was little talk today about removing it, and that doesn’t seem a likely course unless, of course, the witch decides to grow at some insane rate. From what we were told today, fibroids are fed by estrogen, and so they naturally dissipate as we age, when our estrogen levels drop from menopause. Since I’m years away from that, this little witch won’t be shrinking on her own anytime soon.
All we can do now is pray she’s a slow grower. And that she doesn’t give me nightmares.
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