My stupid cervix is still two percent dilated. Pretty much the same scenario as last week. I asked the doc if he has big fingers and I might really be at a four but he just laughed.
Dammit! I was serious.
Because it’s been so busy at the hospital lately and because he wants to be around to, you know, deliver my kid, he suggested we schedule an induction just to have one on the books. He said he’d schedule one for next week, on the 22nd or 23rd, right when I turn 40 weeks. But I was still gunning for that dramatic birthing scenario and suggested we schedule it for AFTER 40 weeks to give this little fella more time to come out on his own.
What was I thinking?
That puts us into March. MARCH! March 1st, actually, which is weird because all this time I’ve been planning a February baby. But, oh my God I am dying, and cannot even think about going a week past my due date. Plus, dear God, how big will he be in March? My poor, poor vagina!
I’m thinking of calling the doctor back this morning and asking if next week is still on the table. But I so wanted this guy to come on his own. And he still could! I mean, I really feel like I could go at any time. But I’ve always said that I’m just going to go with the flow here and if the flow includes Pitocin and an induced labor then fine. Yet it doesn’t HAVE to. I could still tough it out to the 41 week induction date even though the thought of going to 41 weeks strikes more panic in my bones than a delivery without an epidural. Okay, that was a lie but I am trying to convey to you my horror of being pregnant for nearly two more weeks.
If I induce, though, am I big wussy? My pioneering heritage suggests that yes, yes I am a big, giant wussy face. Hell, my mom didn’t have me until she was something like 43 weeks. According to her, anyway. She could be exaggerating. But she says I was three weeks late.
They say sex helps bring on labor so maybe I should just get it on already with Serge, big ass and all. But I think my vagina has grown back together, it’s been so long. Which is all the more reason to get it on, you know, to clear a path for KID B and whatnot.
To schedule an induction next week or keep the March 1st one on the books and hope he comes before that… That is today’s dilemma.
What say you?