Yesterday, at my 34-week OB appointment, I mentioned to my doctor that I was feeling increasing pelvic pressure.
He reassured me that this was a common symptom of later pregnancy, but offered to check my cervix to make sure things are progressing (or not progressing) normally.
Everything checked out fine, but as I stared at the examination room ceiling, having my cervix checked for the first time during this pregnancy, the reality that I will be giving birth very soon hit me like a tidal wave.
While I know that we can never be totally sure how our birth experience will play out, I have to admit, I am terrified of the unknown that this pregnancy brings with it.
My first pregnancy resulted in a c-section because my son was breech, but this time I am going to give VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Cesarean) my best effort.
When my OB checked my cervix yesterday, he told me that the baby is currently head-down. This is great news, as a subsequent breech presentation has been one of my main worries.
Ideally, the baby stays head-down, and I am able to have a normal vaginal birth experience.
I want to avoid the pain and recovery time that comes with a c-section, but honestly, I am really scared about trying to give birth vaginally — particularly after having had a c-section. I am worried about the inevitable pain, I am worried about possible uterine rupture, I am worried about tearing, and prolapse, and any number of other problems that could arise.
I’m just worried, and I know that most women probably experience some level of anxiety about giving birth… right?
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