When both my husband and I got on board about adding to our family over a year ago, I thought that by now I would have a baby in my arms.
I had no thoughts about infertility. I was focused only on preventing another miscarriage, of growing a healthy full-term baby, and how we would get the older kids as prepared as possible.
And then, it just wasn’t happening. 14 months later and it’s still not happening. I just finished my 6th cycle of Clomid — it’s been increased three times.
During my initial appointment with my doctor to discuss my troubles with getting pregnant, we talked about how long I would be on Clomid. It was mentioned that usually people only do 6 months and if pregnancy still hasn’t occurred, then it’s time to move on and try something else or do further testing to see if there are any other underlying issues.
I’ve hit that point and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t worried. I had no idea that I would be battling to get pregnant, and I had no idea that I would still be trying while on fertility medications. With my doctors advice, we have decided to keep me on the Clomid until I’ve had 6 consecutive months where I can confirm ovulation happened. If this month doesn’t work for us, my husband goes to get tested (this was suggested when we first went in to talk about fertility, but historically and according to my charts it was my body’s issue) and we try this triple dose of Clomid again.
It’s made me wonder lately though, what happens if there is another underlying issue? What if I am one of those people who don’t respond well to Clomid? What if the only option to get pregnant is a more involved method?
What if I don’t get the family that I’ve always hoped for?
I don’t want to think about it, but the time frame is creeping up quickly.
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