There is something strange that happens at the end of pregnancy, where suddenly you feel like the whole world is watching you. Every day I can expect to wake up to no less than 5 texts, tweets, or emails wanting the daily report. How are you feeling? Any progress yet? When do you go back to the doctor? I think he’s coming today!
Most of these are also accompanied by, I don’t want to annoy you, but…
And you know what? They don’t annoy me at all. I love that my friends and family are so in love with this baby already that they literally just cannot wait for him to get here. The only thing annoying is ME! I feel guilty that I have nothing to report. No progress. No changes. And even if I were having signs of labor, I haven’t done this before, so I don’t really know they will be.
So what is an expecting mom with no idea what to expect supposed to do?
I find myself apologizing a lot for something that is obviously out of my control. These past few days, I’ve started sending out pre-emptive tweets and texts with nothing more than, “Still pregnant – nothing new to report!” just so that people don’t assume I’m in labor if they haven’t heard from me in two hours.
I remember when my sister was pregnant and it was literally all I could think about as her due date inched closer and closer. Every single day I would call or text her wanting the latest report. And God love her, she never once sounded frustrated with me or annoyed that I assumed there would be day to day news. She ended up having her baby seventeen days late, and now being at the end myself and understanding the frustrations, I can only imagine how much she wanted to kill all of us.
As of today’s appointment, the only news I really have to report that is that my baby is still healthy and thriving, and that he seems perfectly happy to stay put for a little while longer. Until he starts making moves, I’ll just continue to update with my non-updates and soak up all the love pouring in from all around me.
Because let’s be honest, for as many frustrations as pregnancy might cause, hearing daily from the people that love and care about you is most definitely not one of them.