The last time I fell in love was in the year 2004. I was a graduate student at Rowan University and Elijah and I met on the shuttle bus that drove us from the Camden and Glassboro campuses. I thought I knew what love was until Elijah. Before the year 2004, “love” was a chase. It was a game. “Love” was inconsistent and one-sided.
Elijah taught me that love is partnership, communication, and trust. The butterflies aren’t fleeting. The chase is in the beginning during the stage of lust. When you’re in love, you are you. You don’t pretend.
I don’t want to pretend anymore.
I’ve been dating off and on since the year that I fell in love. I have had two short-term relationships and one year-long relationship that I thought would stick. It didn’t. He didn’t love me. I didn’t love him. It was a great lesson in walking away from someone that no longer serves a purpose. Now it is the year 2014 – a decade since I have fallen in love. Ten is a magical number. According to Numerology, “The number 10/1 brings all sorts of new changes into your life, and there seems to be an element of luck within those energies.”
I like the sound of that. As a matter a fact, I am declaring that this year I will get lucky. I will fall in love with a man who loves me just as hard, consistently and reciprocally. I will build my life with a partner in a partnership with communication and trust. I have come full-circle. The number 10 says that much. In 2014, I am ready for love.
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