Yesterday I was a taxi driver and a runner who made it four miles. I was also a Target shopper who proudly escaped for less than $60.
The day before that I was a domestic goddess, roasting pumpkin seeds while cooking chili, catching up on Friday Night Lights, AND getting two hyper-spasticated children into cheap Halloween costumes.
Twenty-some years ago I was a child who was bullied simply for existing, then the girl who didn’t make the cheerleading team. I was the girl in high school who didn’t have as much confidence as she should have. I was the girl who thought I’d marry my high school sweetheart and didn’t believe that there were other fish in the sea.
I am that girl all grown up, who graduated summa cum laude with a Masters Degree, found a different fish in that sea, and still struggles from time to time with self confidence.
Today and everyday I’m always trying to get it right.
I am not someone who can do it all. I’m not the person someone would call to organize a class party. My house is a disaster. I am not good at making phone calls or mailing birthday cards on time. My kids sometimes get PB & J for dinner and my husband is forced to search the fridge for leftovers. My to do list now has to include things like “take a shower” and “call Mom” because the things that I used to do automatically aren’t getting done. There are things that I have had to let go of and mostly they’ve all been tied to the perfect vision I had for what it meant to be a wife and mother.
But I’m more than the sum of the things that I’m not. I am a Christian, a woman, a mother, and wife. I’m a writer, dreamer, and business starter. I’m a Cardinals fan, lover of my Canon, and drinker of iced tea with extra lemon. I’m a friend, budget maker, traveler, and joker. I am always learning something new. I am grateful. I am happy.
I am more and more everyday.
This post was inspired by Alli Worthington’s Phenomenal Women- The ‘I Am’ Project where all sorts of women answered her call to complete this sentence…”I am ___.” Go check out her photo gallery of inspiring women and join in!