My life has become unmanageable. At least my life after, say, 8pm.
I have this thing where I go in to check on my girls — Peony, 19 months, and Petunia, 4 — after they’ve fallen asleep and I find myself taking pictures of them compulsively. I forget about whatever else I was doing before I went into their room, such as spending time with my husband or eating dinner or needing to go to the bathroom. I have total disregard for the darkness in the girls’ room and their sound-asleep bliss. When I see them sleeping, I have an uncontrollable need to capture photographic proof of their REM.
It’s about wanting to preserve their blessed innocence for as long as possible. It’s about how you suffered through a day full of tears, tantrums and tickles and now you can just watch them in peace. It’s about wanting to always remember those pajamas that they’ll outgrow in a matter of days. It’s about seeing with your own two eyes what it literally means for someone to sleep tight.
It’s a child-related addiction and a very real sickness, yes, but can you really blame me for photographing my darling Petunia and my sweet little Peony so very, very often when they’re sleeping?
I’ll make amends later. For now, just take a look at the reason behind my illness and then tell me if you think I need to check myself in somewhere to detox:
Mom-hab here I come 1 of 12
The first step is admitting you have a problem.
When she falls asleep 2 of 12
I mean, come on. How could I not photograph that?
And those pajamas . . . 3 of 12
With the snowflakes. Too. Cute. For. Words.
Which is why a picture is necessary, of course.
And the butt up in the air? 4 of 12
It's like it's reaching for the heavens, just asking for an affectionate pat.
How can you resist?
(Answer: You don't.)
Sleeping photos capture an innonence not seen during waking hours 5 of 12
At least that's what I tell myself when I turn on the lamp in her room so the camera's flash doesn't have to do all the heavy lifting.
I had some dreams 6 of 12
They were clouds on her tushy, clouds on her tushy.
It’s not even just when she’s sleeping in her crib that she’s adorable 7 of 12
As you can see, when she falls asleep with her head on my lap, she still remarkably, brilliantly and painfully cute, too.
But in her crib, she’s particularly precious 8 of 12
A striped butt? I mean, come on.
Lest anyone accuse me of prejudice, however, let it be known that I don’t discriminate 9 of 12
My older daughter is the subject of many a sleeping photo, too.
I mean, falling asleep after crowning herself? 10 of 12
But when your addiction starts affecting other people, you know it’s a problem 11 of 12
It'd be one thing if there were no collateral damage and everyone just slept tight.
But when the click of the camera or the glare from the flash wakes up a toddler from a nap? 12 of 12
Clearly it's time to back slowly away from the camera.
Or at least limit shutter time to when it's not shut-eye time.
Photo credits: Meredith Carroll
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