If I am going to be late, I have to call Mike to make sure he’ll be home but he doesn’t need to call me if it’s the other way around. I’m not sure how or why this was established, it just is.
I’m always eager to go home and hang out with my daughter so this doesn’t usually pose a problem. Plus I work for people who understand being a mom.
However, sometimes problems arise and I need to work late. Last night was one such example.
I had a 5pm call with unhappy clients who wanted to see revisions by the next morning. I called my husband. He also had to work late and suggested asking our nanny to stay.
Now, asking the nanny to stay appears to be an easy solution. But it’s more complicated than that. It means that with the exception of the morning, Mazzy will be in someone else’s care for the entire day.
I love our nanny and she is amazing with our daughter. But I am also very aware of the time I spend with Mazzy compared to the time she spends with Mazzy. I want there to be a balance. My husband coming home while I stay late at work seems different than both of us being gone and our nanny caring for her all day long.
So what did I do?
I left my team at work to fix the problem and I went home.
Once home, I played with Mazzy for exactly an hour and a half before it was time for bed.
Then I spent the rest of the evening feeling guilty that I didn’t follow through at work.
And so it goes…
The classic working mom’s dilemma.
If being a working mother was a sport, anyone have any idea how to win?