My husband bought me tickets to Cirque du Soleil. I LOVE Cirque du Soleil. It’s one of my favorite things in the world. I love the music, the costumes, the amazing feats of strength and grace. It’s just spectacular. I should be so excited about going to see it.
Instead? I keep thinking “Don’t make me leave my baby!!!!!!!!”
I’ve only been apart from my daughter a handful of times. An hour of shopping here, lunch with a girlfriend there, one long stretch while I helped in my son’s preschool classroom. All of those times I left the baby with my husband so I had no anxiety about it. But the idea of leaving her with a non-parent is FA-REE-KING ME OUT!
There really isn’t any reason for me to freak out. I’m leaving the baby with a neighbor who is a good friend and a mom. She’s more than capable of taking care of a baby for a few hours. She adores my little girl. My son will be at our house with a high schooler who will feed him pizza and let him watch movies. This is about the best babysitting set up one could envision.
Basically, I’m having what is either an irrational anxiety spiral or an evolutionarily hardwired reaction designed to prevent me from abandoning my young. Whichever it is, it’s taking away the excitement of going to see what will probably be an amazing show.
I need to snap out of it. For one thing, this is not that big a deal. For another thing, I need to appreciate how thoughtful and awesome my husband is for getting me tickets to Cirque. I need to take time to engage in things I enjoy so that I don’t get stuck in a total mom rut and forget who I am. I also need to remember he importance of partners spending time focused on each other instead of the kids. Date nights are good for the soul and the marriage.
How did you feel before your first date night after having a baby?
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