When I found out I was pregnant with my first, all I can remember was thinking about holding and snuggling this precious baby that I could call mine. I thought about the clothes I could dress her in and the time we’d spend going for walks together. Every thought that entered my mind was a positive one.
Of course, people tried to prepare me for reality over the course of my pregnancy. They told me about the sleepless nights and how we’d have to adjust to it being all about the baby and no longer about us. But I was OK will all that she’d bring into our lives.
It wasn’t until we brought her home and had our first official night alone with her that I soon realized how quickly my life had changed. And as much as I loved my little girl, life wasn’t going to be the butterflies and rainbows I’d dreamt of long before.
Now, six years and two more children later, I’ve learned that parenting doesn’t get any easier. It doesn’t matter what’s going on in your life, the journey of parenthood will throw a curve in your path at any time. It knows how to kick you when you’re down.
Parenting isn’t for the weak.
Last week, just as I thought my week couldn’t get any worse, it did. I had two of the three kids sick and home from school, with one ending up in the emergency room for a fever higher than I’ve ever seen in my life.
Our trip to the ER left me with more questions than answers. They took tests and sent us home, assuring me they’d call if there was anything of concern that came back. I spent the next four days with my son who was sicker than I’ve ever seen him. He didn’t want to sleep; he only wanted to be held by me, and there was very little myself or anyone could do to keep him comfortable.
I sat with him for days and was filled with worry. The time alone with just the two of us gave me a lot of time to think. To think about how far I’ve come in this journey of motherhood. While it’s done some things to test me — my strength, my patience, my emotions — it hasn’t and won’t ever take me down.
Parenting isn’t something that we can take lightly. It isn’t a path that we should take ill-equipped. But what is so great about it, is that the love you have for your child is what makes us strong. It’s that strength that we get that makes it possible for us to do anything. As parents, we’ll conquer anything for the sake of our children.More On