Everywhere you look today there are stories about accidental home births. Women who just couldn’t get to the hospital in time and frantically deliver at home with their husband, or a group of EMT’s that really have no idea what is going on. Or what about the woman a couple months ago who delivered on the side of the highway after already having 4 c-sections?
Every time I see one of these stories my mind certainly starts to wander. Given the two deliveries I have already had, and the desire to have a simple hands off vaginal delivery – giving birth at home accidentally would probably be the only way I could achieve it.
Would it scare me? Probably, but if all these other women can do it with no issue, maybe it wouldn’t be that big of a deal for me.
The decision to have a c-section this time around, after previously having two already, with the plethora of problems I have had during my deliveries seemed like the safest option possible. Although it was probably the most heartbreaking choice I have ever had to make. I am sure there are some out there who do not agree with my choice, I know this because I have already heard the backlash and criticism via twitter, and faceless commenter’s on my personal website. The harsh judgment has certainly been uncomfortable and downright ruthless at times, but I am not a Martyr and I guess some people would rather see a mother and child injured or killed because of an unsafe birth choice than to see a true medically necessary cesarean take place.
I guess it is just one of those… what if’s?
What if I went into labor on my own before my scheduled delivery?
What if I was able to deliver on my own safely?
What if I didn’t have any of the previous problems this time around?
What if I ended up having the baby at home before I was able to secure childcare at that moment, and make it to the hospital?
I mean, honestly I know it is not as easy as it sounds. The daydreams of a baby accidentally just falling out while I scramble to get ready and out the door is exactly that… a dream.
It doesn’t mean I can’t think about it right?