As I officially enter my third trimester today, I can’t help but impatiently wait for this pregnancy to be over with. I’ve come to the realization these past couple of weeks that pregnancy and I just don’t get along.
Between my non-stop battle with morning sickness, heartburn, insomnia, and varicose veins, we just aren’t getting along. The thing I can be thankful for during this pregnancy, is that my baby is healthy and doesn’t seem to be affected by any of these pregnancy side effects.
As I hit the homestretch of the pregnancy, I no longer feel like the glowing pregnant woman that I once did, I can’t help but feel ugly.
This week my daughter and I are fulfilling one of the things off of my pre-baby bucket list. We are spending a couple days by ourselves at a great hotel on the beach in Florida. This is a perfect time for us to bond with one another and really spend some quality time together before the baby comes in a couple of months.
I mentioned that we are on the beach at a resort with five amazing pools. My daughter doesn’t get this very often, and I want to spoil her while we are here, so that means we have to go swimming and I must get in a bathing suit.
I have hit the stage in this pregnancy where I feel that none of my clothes fit. And the ones that do fit make me feel like a swollen, puffed up mess. Having to get into a swim suit feeling swollen, varicose veins all down my right leg, and extremely self conscious is really starting to get to me. I will put my emotions aside for the sake of my daughter, but don’t think I will be flaunting this belly all over the pool deck.
I didn’t have this problem with my first pregnancy. I thought that a pregnant woman was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. I still do. I just don’t feel like one of them.
My husband and I took a trip around this time during my first pregnancy down to Miami beach. I remember being excited to jump into a bikini despite being seven months pregnant. Sure, I’d have strangers look at my big belly sticking out, but I was proud to show off that I was carrying a child.
This isn’t a plea to get everyone to tell me how great I look or me fishing for compliments. Most of this is probably because my hormones are all over the place and I am letting my emotions get the best of me. I’d love to be positive about this whole thing and really enjoy these last few months being pregnant, but just don’t know how.
Did you ever feel ugly during pregnancy? How did you turn it around and stay positive?